Third Trimester

The third trimester (much like the first trimester) has been /will be a bit emotional for me.
I very clearly remember the final weeks of my pregnancy with Dean. I was weepy; I worried about how my relationship with Drew might change. I thought more about what I was taking away from him (me!) and less about what he'd really be gaining (how was I to know they'd be best friends?). It helps to have already been through this before, but it doesn't make me less anxious. While I think it's completely "normal" to carry both excitement and fear with me, I wish I could let go a bit. I need to trust that somehow I will manage three kids by myself (a VERY scary thought); they will all get what they need from us as parents; I will love them ALL with all my heart.

The beginning of this pregnancy seemed to have passed so slowly...yet right now I imagine this third trimester will FLY. I just want to be pregnant. Not a mom of three just yet. Happily pregnant with a little girl in my belly. Life is good right now. REALLY good. I want to treasure each of these "easy" days ahead because things are about to get a whole lot more complicated!