Third time's a charm?!?

I'm still searching for something "charming" about this pregnancy. I'm in my 19th week - and it has been the most difficult, stressful, exhausting pregnancy I've had! (And I'm not even half way there!) Ok, I haven't spent days upon days vomiting - lucky me - but I've had my share of ailments:

* 14 weeks of light bleeding nearly EVERY day ~ leaving me to feel little confidence in the pregnancy and stressing about the baby's health.

* Random cramping throughout first trimester - adding more fuel to my concerns.

* Lots of tearfulness...feelings of worry, sadness, and fear. VERY unusual for me and very unpleasant.

* Headaches, stomach aches, fatigue, sleeplessness, and general discomfort. It could all be typical for pregnancy, but it wasn't typical of MY pregnancies.

Feeling badly while caring for two young boys isn't easy. Already (in my second trimester still!) I'm feeling out of breath when walking up a flight of stairs. WHAT!?! Already I've gained 14 pounds...scary. I have a feeling this is going to be a loooooooong pregnancy. I can only hope that growing inside is a beautiful, healthy baby. Then it's all worth it, right?